Expansive healing for all parts of you.
Spiritual.
Somatic.
Sensual.
Political.
Relational.
Queer.
Hello, I’m Azrael.
I will be your guide into the depths of
spiritual and somatic reclamation and transformation.
You’ve found me because you are seeking support in returning to the wisdom of your body; in reclaiming your birthright to a sensuous, abundant life; in moving through the depths of trauma to come out on the other side feeling more expansive, more grounded, and more aligned with your true self, your loved ones, your communities, and an energy that connects us all.
The violence of white supremacy, capitalism, colonialism, and the cisheteropatriarchy have robbed you of a safe container to explore and expand the sensuous relationship with the world that you crave; but part of you knows that healing is possible.
Your trust in your own abilities and intuition has been eroded; but part of you knows that this trust can be regained. You have been shamed and shown that you are undeserving of pleasure, joy, and connection; but part of you knows that these narratives are not true.
That freedom in your body is possible. That our collective liberation is contingent on having the courage to dive into the depths of ourselves to recover our dignity in an ego-driven world. That love, care, and community are waiting for you, once you are ready to receive it.
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grief • rage • joy • fear • sorrow • pleasure • confusion • contradictions • divinity • sensuality • humanity •
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What I offer
Exploring the Depths of You
I use a wide variety of therapeutic and somatic modalities to support you in cultivating a more expansive and fulfilling relationship with all parts of your spirit-body-mind, and others in your life. I work from an IFS (internal family systems) framework, that welcomes and works with all parts of you. Our sessions may include verbal guidance, somatic exercises, breathwork, art, movement, and meditation. We may also incorporate practices that help us channel a connection to a higher power, our intuitive wisdom, and/or our ancestors such as oracle and tarot reading, automatic writing, and ritual.
⚧ Gender Exploration - I offer sessions that focus exclusively on exploring your relationship to gender and queerness. We all experience the painful pressures of living in a cishetero dominant society, and can face ostracization or even violence if we follow our natural curiosity to experiment and play with our identities and expression. In these sessions I will help you discover the relief, fulfillment, security, and joy in knowing more parts of your expansive self, regardless of whether or not you choose to share these parts of yourself with others. As a transgender/transsexual, queer guide, I welcome you regardless of how you currently identify, and offer space for those identities to shift or remain the same as we work together.
❤︎ Intimacy Exploration & Education - I offer sessions that focus exclusively on exploring intimacy, eroticism, and kink/BDSM. As your guide, I will not engage with you in an erotic way, but I will offer guidance and education to support you in expanding your capacity for erotic pleasure and sexual fulfillment, with yourself and/or partner(s). I previously worked in the sex industry for over a decade as an escort, dominatrix, stripper, porn creator, phone sex operator, and sex educator. Whether you are wanting to work on receiving intimate touch again after experiencing sexual trauma, try kink or BDSM for the first time, cultivate a self pleasure practice, or explore a more extreme fetish or fantasy, I am here to offer guidance that centers nuanced consent, risk awareness and harm reduction, without judgement or shame. I especially enjoy working with clients who currently or formerly worked in erotic industries themselves, and are seeking support from a practitioner who understands the complexities of such work.
How to work with me
I offer a variety of approaches and session lengths- if you’re ready to dive in, visit my booking page.
In Western culture, we are fed the narrative that we must reach for a “fully healed” version of ourselves, and sold endless remedies that claim to propel us to this state of enlightenment. This vision of psycho-somatic “perfection” is, of course, a lie. The truth is, we are never fully healed; we live wonderfully messy, imperfect human lives, and ride endless waves of change in our bodies, relationships, circumstances, and beliefs. The beauty of this is that we have an endless supply of memories, lineages, and connections to get curious about and dive deeper into; we are afforded the gift of endless opportunities for transformation, expansion, and growth.
Expansive healing is best approached as a sustained, committed practice that becomes integrated into your daily life. We’ll work together to find the cadence of in-session work, between-session exercises, and long term tools that best fit your lifestyle and needs, and transforms alongside you. To get started, I have three recommend approaches for you to try, each following a month-long cycle:
Integrative: A 90-minute session at the beginning of the month, followed by one, 1-hour session per week (total of 4.5 hours of guidance per month).
If you are feeling trepidatious about diving into this work, this is a great way to get started without feeling overwhelmed. The 90-minute sessions at the beginning of each month offer us sufficient time to thoroughly (re)assess your desires, goals, and progress, and talk through a road map for our work the rest of the month. Regular 1-hour sessions offer you the experience of continuous and consistent progress, without having to rely solely on self-motivation to integrate expansive practices into your life.Intensive: A 1-hour preparation session at the beginning of the month, a 4 to 6 hour immersion session the following week, followed by a 1-hour integration session at the end of the month (total of 6-8 hours of guidance per month). If you feel enlivened by energizing waves of change, followed by slower periods of processing and integration, this cadence may be most satisfying for you. Be prepared to set aside more time outside of sessions for self-led expansive practice, as longer immersion sessions often bring up a significant amount of material that will require time and attention to integrate.
Immersive: Two, 1 or 2-hour sessions per week, ongoing (total of 8-12 hours of guidance per month).
If you are feeling ready to commit to a consistent expansive therapeutic practice, two sessions per week provides you with the optimal space and support to process ongoing life experiences, as well as addressing past trauma and relational patterns that you would like to shift. If you are seeking intimacy education, each week we will have one theoretical/educational session and one session dedicated to practice.
Each of these approaches has provided transformative, long-lasting results, however, everyone is different and we will collaborate to find what best meets your needs and desires.
You are welcome to book your first session or schedule a free 30 minute discovery call directly through acuity.
I believe that we in the Western world are experiencing a mass spiritual crisis, as a symptom of white supremacy and colonialism. Oppressive powers thrive when they succeed in detaching us from our bodies, and our connection to the land, to others, and to a sense of something larger than all of us. By returning to ourselves and these divine senses of connection, we take the first step towards a revolution rooted in truth, dignity, healing, and love.
My spiritual lens
Spirituality looks and feels different to everyone; I am not here to influence you towards or indoctrinate you into any particular form of spirituality or religion, but rather to support you in expanding your sense of connection to something larger than yourself. For some, this takes the form of the universe, the Earth, energy, or the cosmos; for others, God/s, Goddess/es, or other divine figures. Even political and social movements or subcultures can offer this sense of divinity. If you have a spiritual practice already, we will explore the role your beliefs play in your healing journey and how to sustain and nourish your spirit in a way that feels aligned with your self energy.
I am adamant in supporting your spiritual practice with deep care, respect, openness and humility, and am committed to continuing my education on the diverse array of spiritual practices around the world so that I can show up respectfully, especially as Indigenous cultures and cultures of the Global South continue to be appropriated and targeted for erasure.
My political lens
I believe that we all have the right to live dignified lives; that we should all have access to food, water, shelter, healthcare, art, culture, and community, regardless of what we do or where we live. I believe that a world free from the violence of white supremacy, colonialism, capitalism, and the cisheteropatriarchy is possible, and am committed to recognizing and abolishing these institutions, in myself and my communities. I am indebted to my BIPOC and criminalized loved ones who have taught me all I know about healing, play, rest, and resistance.
I believe that Palestine, Congo, Sudan, Haiti, Tigray, Turtle Island and all lands and people who are subjected to colonial extraction and violence deserve and will eventually see freedom. I believe in giving the land back to Indigenous stewards, and paying reparations to those whose ancestors were subject to genocide through slavery, and who continue to face the violence of racism, colorism, and misogynoir. I believe in the abolition of prisons and borders; in the decriminalization of sex work and drugs; in wholistic, dignified care for our disabled, sick, young and elderly community members; in bodily autonomy and reproductive justice for all people. I believe that we all have gifts to offer in service to our collective freedom, and that none of us are free until all of us are free.
How my clients are feeling post session…
“I wanted to thank you again for holding space for such a wonderful session. I absolutely loved the unique mix of feeling completely embodied, but also somehow able to express my feelings and sensations out loud. I've never experienced anything like that before and it's pretty transcendent.”
“Azrael helped me find my own ecstasy and then held me in their arms as I cried over a recent tragedy. I tell them my problems and they are more helpful than any therapist, using their art form to bring all feelings to the surface and release them. What a beautiful person, inside and out.”
“After our session, I went out with friends for dinner and enjoyed the most magical glass of ice water. It was so cold and refreshing as moved through my mouth, down my throat and inside me. As everyone enjoyed drinks I couldn't stop thinking about the girl and boy inside. I kept tasting our session and reliving the experience. Eventually, I did have a few drinks but I kept thinking about the importance of connection with others which seemed to keep me really even keeled. The weekend was a lot of holiday celebration but I am really happy with how I did with alcohol consumption. The tools that you gave me are really powerful and I love how connecting with both the girl and boy inside me help me be better. Thank you so much for such a life changing session!”
“I am writing to thank you for the great session. It was a really beautiful, pleasant and therapeutic experience. I think I didn't know the meaning of eroticism until now. I mean, I didn't know how it was to feel these kinds of emotions that are so different from what we normally understand as sexuality. I really enjoy the care and delicacy dissociated from any other intention than the feeling of the moment. No compromise, no expectation, no judgment, just joy and pure tenderness. Thanks for listening and helping me make my fantasies come true. I will definitely be back.”